its ironic.....
how outer changes cn change sm1's perspective abt u.........
or does it????

smhw i like sm1......... n yet i fear it wont turn out rite........ it'll go as suddently as it came......
afraid to get so caught up in my feelings dat i loose my friend
smtymes i think its best dat i dnt get involved in dose kinda feelings.........
atleast ill hv one frnd i dont wanna loose.........


smhw instinctivly i turn away frm d rest hopin to get acceptance frm just one person
wish i cud answer y


it cant b love......... its too soon......or is it????
cant b cause i dnt knw him??? ......... or do i???


its good dat hes a bit more level headed dan me


i hope fr once dat dis turns out rite...... fr once
fr once id like to nt dissapoint sm in me
so i guess id rather stick to just frndship
i dont want to hurt dis person...... by making him question
n face d same thing dat im facing

n i guess its smthing u cn count on
something ud count on rather dan risk loosing ur frnd


i think im rambling. n writtin d same thing evry three lines
so id btter stop

frnd.....

i thot i found sm1
sm1 who wud understand me.......... bt nw its so hard to find out if dere was evn a bit honesty in wht i meant to my frnd
"ur like d first rain drop of d evening sky"
dats hw he was to me/...
a cute lil kid
dat i had adored......bt i took it away frm myself on my own
man hw i hate to clarify things
it just gets me into a bigger mess.........
wierdly it felt like he dint care
n dats d hardest blow to take........

it z so emptying........
one moment u feel so happy to talk to sm1
n d vry nxt....
u feel like death wud b better dan loosing ur frnd
n yet u cnt stop..u cnt pull bck wht uve unleashed

frndship??

guess i just lost a frn d today..... more due to my hyperness...... its so wierd hw ppl cn say things to you widout evn meaning dem...... n u actually start trusting dem u bank on dem... n whn u realize dat dey r just playing along... its pretty much frustrating....
its hard to ask wht dey really meant cause u fear rejection... its so hard to clarify......
n yet ven u smhw do it......d retorts,, d comments,, d answers,,........ deyr like a slap